I have been questioning myself many times, “What is my life purpose?”. I have been looking for it high and low elsewhere, and neglecting what’s really in my heart all these while.
Recently, I realised that my life’s purpose has been implanted in me all these while. I have been foolishly looking elsewhere, hoping to find someone, like a prophet, to specifically tell me about my life’s purpose.
Somehow, we do know, deep down in our hearts, what we really want or should do. But because of the pressures around us and people telling us that we should be conformed to certain standards or expectations, we questioned our heart’s desires and shoved them aside; and keep searching externally for the right answers that would please everyone, including or excluding ourselves.
By doing so, we are suppressing our heart’s nudges. But there’s more…
We are actually grieving the Holy Spirit who resides in our hearts. It is the Holy Spirit who is directing us on what we should or should not do. He is our compass and the lamp that lights the paths at our feet; to direct our course step by step.
It is the Holy Spirit who gently nudges our hearts to direct our course.
It is our own choice whether to obey or disobey the Holy Spirit.
If we obey, we will definitely experience a sense of peace and tranquility, despite how unpopular the decision might turn out to be, in the eyes of the people who are affected by the decision. We will know in our hearts that God is in control and He will do whatever it takes to fulfill His purpose.
If we disobey, we will likely experience anxiety, hurt, confusion, frustration and/or anger. We will also feel lost and possibly, delusional, thinking that we did the right thing.
But even if we made the incorrect decision, the Holy Spirit will still nudge our hearts to redirect us, and He will comfort us.
It is up to us whether we are open to accept the correction, or choose to continuously disobey, in order to protect our pride. If we continuously choose to disobey, we will grief the Holy Spirit.
“You stiff-necked and stubborn people, uncircumcised in heart and ears, you are always actively resisting the Holy Spirit. “
Acts 7:51 (AMP)
So, ask yourself, what is the Holy Spirit speaking to you, deep down in your heart. If we continuously seek God, we will find the definitely find the answers to the questions that we seek for.
“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. “
Matthew 7:7 (NLT)
Ultimately, we need to have faith and trust the Lord, for He have great plans and purpose for us.
As long as we are still alive and living, we are destined to fulfill His plans for His purpose, as long as we continue to obey Him and not take for granted of the grace and mercy that He have generously given to us even though we do not deserve it.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord.
Jeremiah 29:11-14 (NIV)